First off- sorry I have written in awhile. I will try to do better about this, and I promise that once we leave I will be much better.
I cannot believe that it is a little over 2 months since Nathan left to go to Missouri. I feel that we have both done a pretty good job of keeping busy, keeping our minds off of missing each other. I have been busy with work, watching Jake graduate from college, applying for grad school, etc. While Nathan has been busy training and working on his German, which I need to get busy on. This past week has seemed to drag on and I know that the next couple of days will as well as I count down the hours until my first trip out to Missouri to see Nathan. (Yes, I am to the point of counting down the hours until I leave, at this point I am at about 91 hours until I get to see Nathan again). I wish I could say that my trip is longer but its for 5 days, which I am not going to complain its 5 days that I could be spending without Nathan.
When we found out about Germany it seemed so far away and as if it would never come. Now I look ahead I cannot believe how much I still have left to do to get ready and how quickly it is approaching. Nor, can I believe that Nathan will be done with his training in a little less than 2 months, we are over half way through it. Time to really kick it into high gear and try to get everything that I was hoping to get done before Nathan came back done. I suppose that in 3 years when we are getting ready to return from Germany that I will be saying I cannot believe that it went by that fast, reminds me to sit down take a breath and appreciate the moment and not look so much into the future, but live in today.
I know that it has only been 2 months, which isn't as long as separations yet to come, but I am ready to see Nathan. This has been on my mind a lot this week as I have several co-workers and friends who are welcoming home husbands from deployments to Iraq and Afghanistan the last couple of weeks. I watch these women with the greatest respect as they continue to keep pushing through with life, with the best attitudes, and although I know that internally they struggle with loneliness in their husbands being gone they do not show it. I only wish that I can be that strong one day to not have my best friend for an entire year and still have a very positive outlook on life, I guess you just have to keep reminding yourself exactly why it is that he is gone. I do know, without a doubt, that after this time apart and our trust in each other that we can face any deployment, no matter how long. How do I know this? Because we are Army strong! Hooah!
